A post about me
https://nilio.ca/post?title=A%20post%20about%20me
This post is an attempt to start writing on my blog, it's a journey to find a creative direction for the future of what I will write while I don't want my blog to be too tech-oriented (just enough).
In this post I write about myself, my struggles and how I've overcome them. There is a bit on how I use computers and my current projects.
Hello! I'm a disabled, neurodivergent writer based in Tiverton, Devon.
I write about disability, identity, education, democracy, and the stories that systems overlook.
Exploring liminality, unmasking, and the quiet power of reflection.
Blog: dispatchesfromthethreshold.substack.com
My partner has undiag ADHD and anxiety and we have been talking through experiences both so I (AuDHD) can better understand his experience and also verbalize my own (as in, oh, I would be able to make accommodations if this was someone else, so why don't I accommodate for myself?)
https://neurodivergentinsights.com/autistic-anxiety/
We are discussing this article, like what is the difference between being anxious, autistic anxiety, being overwhelmed, or experiencing dread... etc.
> Dr. Jonathan Dalton discusses the distinction between dread and anxiety. Anxiety typically involves worries about what might happen, such as fretting over how you will be perceived at a social event or what might or might not occur there. In contrast, dread is about the certainty of discomfort, such as knowing an event will be overstimulating and involve extensive small talk.
Community Cooperation Wales are running a 4-day workshop on Employability Skills & Personal Development for Neurodiverse People at their office in Cardiff.
The workshop "includes an Institute of Leadership and Management (ILM) Level 2 Award in Leadership and Team Skills."
For more information contact Lloyd@communitycooperationwales.org.uk
I am not affiliated with this organisation. I received this information in a newsletter.
#Cardiff @adhd @autism #Autism #ADHD #AuDHD #Neurodivergent #Wales
Heya #neurodivergent friends, what's your experience with #audiobooks? Do you have any tips on the how and when? Any genres that work better?
I got into podcasts two years ago, for walks around the city and workouts but several shows have slowed down or paused due to *wave hands around* and I'm out of backlog. Wondering whether I should try out audiobook as I start a new treadmill routine.
My main concern is about the attention it might require: I often read pages with my eyes but not my brain, and have to re-read pages. Does that happen with #ADHD and audiobooks too?
The autistic urge to over share but the autistic skill to "overthink" and edit or delete your messages/posts. If only you could do this in real life. 
#autistic
#autism #actuallyautistic
#Neurodivergent #AutismAwareness #AutismAwarenessMonth #adhd
Had a rough night full of intrusive anxious thoughts about literally everything.
I managed to sleep by grabbing every pillow and cushion I own and piling them around my body and my head. It made me feel safe
New Article! Learning To Live: A Reflection At 9 Years Sober
Today, April 7th, 2025, i am nine years sober. Here is what I have learned.
https://emergentdivergence.com/2025/04/07/learning-to-live-a-reflection-at-9-years-sober
#ActuallyAutistic #autism #ADHD #neurodiversity #neurodivergent @actuallyautistic @mentalhealth@a.gup.pe @mentalhealth@newsmast.community
One of the things I've always loved is spending time alone in nature. Mostly for the obvious reasons that most people enjoy it. But also, as I now realise, because I could drop the mental shields and defences I'd created, almost entirely unconsciously, and really allow my senses to expand and sink into the world around me, without all the usual noisy horror of humanity causing me its pain. There was also a sense of peace in the wilds, that nothing was being demanded of me.
Grow up knowing you are different, even if you don't really know why, and you quickly learn the dangers of showing it, of letting others see the truth. It's why many of us learn to mask from an early age. The world around us quickly lets us know, in many subtle and, quite frankly, fucking unsubtle, ways, that we aren't right and that it's us who have to change. Being in nature was the only place I could feel free of that. Alone in it, nothing was being demanded of me by the world around me, just as I demanded nothing of it. We could just be, existing in the world that we made together. It was the only time I ever felt truly at peace and relaxed, without the nagging thoughts and whispering fears of caution and of not being seen.
I realised today that this was because I separated, in my mind, the human world, from the world of nature. In one, I had a sense of belonging, of just being a part of something, just like everything else. In the other, I was always the outsider, who could never really belong because he was too different, too other and that all I could really do was hide that, mostly for justified fear of being seen. It was, and still remains, the cause of so much of the anxiety and stress I feel just being out in the world. This sense that I'm always in hostile terrain and the fear of showing it.
Which, whilst still so true in many ways, I realised isn't really needed any more. I'm an adult now, OK a gnarly old git, who's often far more trouble than he's worth, and I have my own truths to live by and don't need theirs and that it was never their world anyway, they just happen to populate mine.
This On Guard Cigar Salon episode really struck a chord with me. A wide swath of our country was gaslit and dog whistled to support a regime that seems to be bent on harm. I’m looking for opportunities to speak out and protest. More importantly is to ensure that those who responded to these signals to support this mess and who will themselves be harmed.
is there any treatment from severe autistic burnout? like antidepressants and whatnot?
The Autistic Innovator is open for author self-publishing submissions again. The royalty rate was 70% back when books were on a separate store, but since everything moved to The Autistic Innovator I've raised it to 90%. The store doesn't need the money so it can be a higher percentage.
I fell very behind on responding to author submissions and adding books to the store. Now that I'm finally on the right ADHD med dose, my brain works again so I'm able to take on this extra project.
Here is the link for more info. I'll update it shortly.
Hey US readers! Reminder, you only have a few hours left to grab Your Knowledge or Your Life for only .99 cents on amazon! (ends midnight PST)
YA mystery: In a world where knowledge outranks wealth... would you die to protect it?
www.amazon.com/dp/B0DTTNDFM9
I think the biggest mental health breakthrough was realizing that I'm only unhappy around other humans; alone I am perfectly comfortable with my mind and body. whether the fault lies in me or with them doesn't really matter - what matters is that I know there's a normal for me, whether or not I can always reach it. #neurodivergent
What Culture Says about Strength Isn't True
I heard Annihilation was about grief or relationships. I'm interested af in Scavenger's Reign.
I feel like we have a rough indentation / substructure of how we will process things from birth, but that every event thereon will shape it further.
As well, we know ourselves in reference to others: "I'm like A, not like B, but most like C. What lies beyond C? I might see myself reflected best over there."
"Rules do not exist to bind you; they exist so you may know your freedoms."
Parameters outline a given environment within which to experiment and explore. It's one antidote to Blank Page Syndrome, for example.
I have to disagree entirely about personifying the automated house in There Will Come Soft Rains (fantastic name), but otherwise yes. This is exactly my understanding.
https://nebula.tv/videos/talefoundry-fiction-about-nobody/
It's also a good description of why I feel so confused by others.
People tend to feel more secure (than I do) in their identities as individuals, group members, and (neurotypical / neurodefault / neurorigid) humans.
I am now offering some contant on substack, some free stuff and some for paying subscribers. Paid subscribers get full access to my new podcast with free previews available. If this interests you, you can check it out here, I also have a few exclusive articles.
https://www.davidgrayhammond.co.uk/p/autistic-storytime-with-david-episode
Sophie 
YA Mystery! 
Autistic Coach 
