Hi. I'm terrified.

I've been trying to make my own space on the web for years. And I've been stuck. Badly.

But today is my birthday. And I refuse to let another year pass without putting something—anything—out there.

So here it is in all its messy glory. My first post on my barely-there #website: https://fromemily.com/hi-im-terrified/

It's not great. But it's okay...enough.

And I hope it means something to someone.

@actuallyautistic

Hi. I'm terrified.

I've been trying to make my own space on the web for years. And I've been stuck. Badly.

But today is my birthday. And I refuse to let another year pass without putting something—anything—out there.

So here it is in all its messy glory. My first post on my barely-there #website: https://fromemily.com/hi-im-terrified/

It's not great. But it's okay...enough.

And I hope it means something to someone.

@actuallyautistic

Today’s #ActuallyAutistic workday mediation:
“Just because someone is a disaster that does not make them my emergency.”

…sometimes I really regret going into IT work and wish I like… drove a truck or a forklift for work instead.

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 527 , Monday 07/04/2025

Monday dawned sunny & bright - we’re having quite warm days, low to mid teens, but clod over night with lows around 4 or 5 Celsius.
I really struggled to get into the swing of the day & finally got going about 07:15.

I made myself breakfast & did the washing up, Mrs S having gone out to the office.

Quite a busy morning, the weather station was showing an error for the outdoor sensors so I fetched it in gave it a good clean & changed the batteries. This seemed to help & everything is working again now.
I cleaned the coffee machine too & gave the bath a good clean - we barely use it but it’s one with jets & it still needs cleaning about every 6 weeks.

Had the last hotdog for lunch - a naughty treat, but I knew we would be having something mind buggeringly boring for tea so I thought “To hell with the calories!”

Watched a couple of episodes of ‘Peaky Blinders’ this afternoon, on season 5 of 6 so not too many episodes to go.

Also managed to do a couple more achievements in the NMS ‘Relics’ expedition. I have to go fishing to get one of the achievements - possibly the most frustrating thing Hello Games ever added to NMS!

Mrs S got home just before 6pm so I nuked us her fave hotpot & we finished watching ‘Shetland’ with a pint of cider to help it all along.

Final Thoughts.

I think I might try going shopping on Wednesday , I need some different food!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you!

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

#actuallyautistic
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weird little thought that Clarence, as in the Book of Clarence, my latest favourite movie, was a bit of Job, the decent man who knows what’s right better than the religious sorts around him - I mean he’s a dumbass too, half Job, half fool . . .
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sorry, nvm. Carry on.

Hello Autumn! It's my native season. I really like this view from my window while I'm working on my laptop. Sometimes I look out at the yard, and the view triggers memories and reflections. The quietest season, the transition from the fire of summer to melancholy and depth. The trees withdraw their sap back into their roots, and in the same way, my heart and mind become inward-looking. My bipolar brain calms down and serenity arrives.

Day 7 - Share a funny or curious fact you learned from pursing your hobbies (special interests). Please feel free to infodump as much as you like!

#actuallyautistic
#AutismApril #actuallyautistic
#autismacceptancemonth
#AutismAcceptanceMonth

@actuallyautistic @autistics #ActuallyAutistic another Monday, another slew of emails of the neurotypicals patting themselves on the back for exhibiting basic competence

Meine Großeltern, Mitte 80, müssen umziehen, und ich arbeite das erste Mal bewusst mit meinem Großvater zusammen an Alltagsdingen. Meine Güte, ist der auf dem Spektrum! Hyperfokus! Alles-oder-nichts-Denken! Stimming! Impulsives Handeln! Alles das. Ach ja, und er sammelt gerne und hatte mehrere sehr intensive Hobbys, in denen er obskures Fachwissen gesammelt hat. #actuallyautistic

Had a rough night full of intrusive anxious thoughts about literally everything.

I managed to sleep by grabbing every pillow and cushion I own and piling them around my body and my head. It made me feel safe

Whoever designed the Loop earbuds deserves the Nobel award. #SensoryIssuee #ActuallyAutistic

I work with a presumed Allistic individual as part of a two person team and there are times when it drives me nuts because he and I don't always meet eye-to-eye.

However we both have a drive to get things done right and take care of our customer base and we do a damn good job at it because I have bottom-up thinking and he has top-down thinking and he catches my tone and I catch his details.

It makes a really, really strong case for neurodiversity in the workplace and the output shows well. Really great to experience this and I hope more workplaces open up to this mindset. Diversity is power.

Autistics have a history of genuine experiences telling us that social encounters are, more often than not, going to be uncomfortable. And, like all reasonable humans, we avoid the thing that is uncomfortable.

i'm not very good today, so dizzy, and ralphie is not amused #dizzy #chronicillness #notamused #monster #comfortitem #actuallyautistic #plushies

Does anyone know of any formal medical descriptions of how autists use language, & how we differ from NTs in this way? I have searched everywhere, & can't find anything.

We think and speak differently, but no formal recognition.

#AskingAutistics
#ActuallyAutistic
#ADHD
#AuDHD
#AskingADHD

You weren’t “high-functioning.”
You were masking.

You weren’t “coping.”
You were dissociating.

You weren’t “fine.”
You were in burnout.

They praised your performance.
But never saw the cost.

You deserved care.
Not applause.

@actuallyautistic #ActuallyAutistic

New Article! Learning To Live: A Reflection At 9 Years Sober

Today, April 7th, 2025, i am nine years sober. Here is what I have learned.
https://emergentdivergence.com/2025/04/07/learning-to-live-a-reflection-at-9-years-sober

#ActuallyAutistic #autism #ADHD #neurodiversity #neurodivergent @actuallyautistic @mentalhealth@a.gup.pe @mentalhealth@newsmast.community

we've found a lovely little farm with a cafe and shop and some other foody things. we've been twice, but I'm starting to realise that I get a rather specific sort of social anxiety there that I've not had since I was little and waaay before I knew I was #ActuallyAutistic.

Here's the thing: it's very obviously their place. Their yard and sheds, their dogs, family in and out.

I'm back to being eight and visiting with aunts and uncles I didn't know.

It doesn't help that they are incredibly nice!